I come from a mixed heritage; half is white and the other half is Latin-American (I’ll refer to now as ‘ethnic’).
I’ve grown up mainly around my white side of the family and only on rare occasions have spent time with my ethnic family. I was raised with barely any ethnic culture.
Whenever I’m with my ethnic family I find that I’m at a severe disadvantage. I’m not well versed in Español or cultural customs and behaviors. I miss out on different social queues and often appear to confuse people.
Whenever I spend time with them I feel on the outs. They’ve been raised in that background for so long and I have not. It feels strange to me... and they feel I’m strange to them.
Over the years I’ve picked up a lot since my early childhood (learned more language, understood social norms, etc.) I still find it difficult to integrate myself though.
Usually they’ll just laugh when I do something that might seem weird in their own cultural context; it’s never anything toxic; although, it is made quite apparent.
Even though my ethnic family can be confusing, I still love them and want to make an effort to better include myself.
I’d like to feel like I fit in with them more. I don’t want to sacrifice my individuality by any means. I really just want to be able to have a good time and not worry about weirding anyone out.
TLDR; How can I better include myself in my ethnic family so I don’t come across as ‘strange’ anymore?