I’ve moved to the US from Iran two years and a half ago and started my current job two years ago. I had severe depression and anxiety when I started my job, which led to low performance and so many interpersonal problems with my colleagues, especially with my teammates. We are 3 members in our team, me and two boys.
I’ve been on medication for a year and half, I can say that I’m getting a little be myself now. But my teammates are not comfortable with me at all and try to avoid me. They often will talk with each other on the way to meetings, but never with me. When I see them in the garage or the kitchen they act like they haven't seen me and ignore my greetings, but I've seen them often making small talk and accompanying other co-workers .
I understand that my depression, being a woman, and a foreigner blow the fire of being hateful. However, I need to be in more communication with them. I’m not still comfortable with speaking; because, I know that no one likes my weird accent and the mistakes I make while speaking. Therefore, no chance for starting a conversation and chat with them for now.
I don’t know how to break this ice and create space to be more proactive.