I have decided to do my once per year attempt to not die alone this week that has passed. I decided to ask this nice looking lady that I know for coffee. The problem I have is that for some reason I don't understand women seem to think when I ask them for coffee that I either want to marry them or have sex with them.
This is not actually my intentions. All I really wanted was her time and her company, but she made it clear she did not want to be my girlfriend which was odd because I did not ask her to be my girlfriend and I cannot understand why she would think this.
To be honest, I'm not at the point in my career that I can consider a relationship. To be frank, I don't earn enough money for a woman. My father told me on more than one occasion that I should know the only hobby more expensive than women are children. I could afford coffee though.
I'm rather lonely and the company of a woman would be a very enjoyable spend of an evening. I don't expect or really want anything more from them than company and friendship, but I have a really hard time explaining that to a woman.
To be honest, if she just touched me I would have to do everything in my power not to have a panic attack right there on the spot.
I spend most of my 20s like a hermit and had long spells of agoraphobia that was hard for me to overcome. So it easy to say that social interactions are very hard for me.
It was very hard for me to talk to her at all, she is a strikingly beautiful woman, tall and thin and really looks like she could be a model of some sort. I went through weeks of internal strife before I got the nerve to talk to her.
I really fear the things that people might say. She decided to tell me some lark about her being too busy, but I don't know why she could have just told she was not interested.
I feel hurt that people would assume the worst of me. I'm not a bad person but when women assume bad things from me when they don't know me, it cuts me deep. I keep wondering if there is something about my personality that makes women think this.
I'm never going to talk to this woman again. Anything I say to her at this point would be futile and sound desperate. She thinks poorly of me and even though her opinion is not rooted in reality I'm still powerless to change it. I guess I should just make peace with it then. I just keep on wondering why people think this and what am I doing to make this a recurring theme in my attempts to understand the opposite sex?
The question is how do I ask women for there company and make it clear to them that when I ask them to coffee, coffee just means coffee? Nothing more nothing less.