It might sound funny to some people but for me its the most horrifying thing ever.
For any answers/comments don't use the word "li......" it just makes me feel like yuck. Please refer to it as "IT"
Back Story: When I was younger (8-10 years old, now I am 22) my mom had asked me to bring something from a washroom which wasn't used by anyone. But I was busy playing that I didn't hear it. An hour later my mom came and she was fuming, she ended up locking me up in that washroom for some time.
Since that washroom wasn't used by anyone it was old, dingy deserted kind of that's when I first noticed a reptile (lizard). It scared the shit out of me and I cried profusely. Since that day I have developed a phobia for reptiles.
I can't be in the same room, I feel like vomiting and I suddenly start feeling claustrophobic. I have decided that I will seek a therapist to deal with the phobia asap. I won't tell my mom this though, because its kind of a taboo seeing them. So I have decided to seek help undercover.
The deal is my mom doesn't get it. I have told her multiple times that due to that incident I am like this. She shrugs it off.
I have tried discussing with her. Sample conversation:
ME: Mom I can't do this/that, can't go there since IT is there.
SHE: already angry Get over with it. Just go and do whatever I have told you.
ME: Mom, I am literally scared of it, I am not joking due to that day it is kind of impossible for me. I feel like its gonna end up on me and I feel like running away.
SHE: *either leaves the room/ ends the conversation/ tells me how I am gonna live my life if I am like this*
Nowadays she scolds me a hell lot if I don't do any work asked by her because I saw the reptile in the same room or something like that.
I live in India so temperature shoots up during April - Aug so IT comes out a good amount of times.
I don't know how to make her understand?
I guess if she understood this she won't be scolding me for it.