I am a high energy person and do tend to snap easily when I have a perfect storm of tiredness, constant work pressure, lack of human interaction due to COVID, and simultaneously spending a lot of my free time looking for a different job/going to grad school. This has led to people seeing me as less professional and reliable at work. I concede that I can't blame them on this point because they can't read my mind.
However, I go into work and tend to stay extra to round out my 9 hour work day and even come in occasionally on the weekends. I feel like this should warrant something more than a "thanks" but all I get in my performance reviews are things like this:
"< My Name > had to ask for too much help on a simple task"
" You have been putting up code reviews too early"
" Stop volunteering"
This, in addition to my mental state that I talked about earlier drives me up a wall and leads to a vicious cycle of ruining my productivity, becoming more short with people, reducing my performance, rince and repeat. I have scheduled an appointment with a psychologist that will hopefully help, but I want to know from a conversational perspective how to proceed. Speficially, I want to accomplish the following:
How do I still maintain professionalism and maturity in the face of petty criticism, while still learning from said criticism?