My experience has been that it is usually, during every day life, the best idea to play the role model and be as if nothing were wrong. I have gotten accustomed to that years ago, because usually, most things go well between people and there is no reason to dig up past problems, usually. However, it is when we are talking about our past experiences when I get problems. I basically can't talk about a lot of my past without creating an awkward silence because no one knows how to return from "difficult family times" to "happy day talk". I guess thas is when I have to come up with a joke.

I have already had psychotherapy because some family issues and kept going there after that to support me during a difficult phase, but it never really helped that much because we only ever came to the conclusion that I can´t do much and that I have to accept most of the things that were troubling me. I am glad that I will soon leave my family´s house which will allow me to move on more easily.